Unexpectedly Expecting 🤰🏻
We got the shock of our lives about two weeks before our Thailand trip.
It was the first time I had ever missed my cycle… and at a little over 5 weeks, I took a pregnancy test at home while Steven and I anxiously awaited together for the results. When I first suspected my symptoms, I didn’t even have a usable test at home because the only ones I had were expired from a decade earlier! Trying to purchase one in cognito days prior with my 6 year old in tow was memorable. "What kind of medicine is that, Mommy?" Aaro asked, as I ventured over to the pharmacy section to discreetly shop Publix's selection of at-home tests. I have never had any reason to believe that I'm pregnant, and my monthly cycles have always been predictable. I knew that stress could cause my body to be acting differently, but in my heart, I knew that this was likely the start of something new inside my body...
When we got the clear and positive result staring us in the face that Easter Sunday evening, we lost our minds. Shock and disbelief. Excitement and overwhelm. Confusion and anticipation. Joy and nerves.
New life was beginning in my womb. After 14 years of marriage, and about a decade of known infertility, the Lord's chosen timing to open my womb and breathe new life was now.
The next two weeks of final preparations for our long awaited “gotcha” trip to Thailand for our daughter felt like a blur. Morning sickness and a paralyzed mind joined me in all of the packing and last-minute preparations for the trip. I was shocked beyond belief and was processing what this would mean and how life would look in the weeks and months ahead.
Heading to a foreign country on 24 hours of flights when you are 8 weeks pregnant for the first time in your life and headed to meet your 2nd child that you have waited for 3 years and 9 months to meet = a mix of every emotion possible. I was anxious about what it would be like to continue experiencing the challenges of first trimester but being away from home for 3 weeks of it; and I felt nervous about all of the stressors that were coming my way with such a major life adjustment with our new girlie joining us soon.
Questions rang in my heart, “Will I have the energy and strength that I need and have always imagined having for my new daughter in the days ahead?"
I felt so torn about my energy being divided in any way in this journey. I had some very honest conversations with the Lord about His chosen timing for this beautiful miracle, and my heart was filled with a mix of gratitude and confusion at all times.
We held tightly to this shocking and wonderful news, keeping it private as we made our way through the final commitments in our schedules before taking off for our big trip. We celebrated Steven's birthday, Aaro's birthday, and wrapped up several different responsibilities for the adoption trip ahead, Aaro's school, Steven's work, and even a dance performance for Kristin!
On the other side of this long-awaited travel was landing on Mother's Day - one that I will never forget!
:: Our Pregnancy Story - To Be Continued ::
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